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There is no such thing as NORMAL!
You are certainly not alone when it comes to different situations you are dealing with. Everyone has times of horrific difficulties, at least it feels like horrific. You feel like you've been sideswiped, and that you just can't get through it.

Life does throw you a lot of surprises, good and bad. Their aftereffects are varied depending on the person.....
Emotional, Cognitive, Physical, Behavioral... Mine was Emotional, I was depressed, suicidal, fearful, stressed, angry, no self esteem, lost and overwhelmed.

I recognized this aftereffect as a normal reaction to everything that went on. And let me tell you I was hit with 3 horrible emotional issues from three different households that live around me, and the loss of 4 friends. 2 of the houses continue to try and terrorize me, I'm dreading summer as it gets here and everyone will be outside, making sure they show me I'm a horrible person that doesn't deserve to have friends and such. I am getting to the point that I don't care anymore, so that's a good thing. These people have major issues, they aren't mine at all. I've been wanting normal back, peace, people able to talk to each other. But that's not up to me, and it's not my fault to begin with when people feed others gossip that in turn causes people to live in a very uncomfortable neighborhood.

Normal, there is no such thing as normal! Don't put pressure on yourself to get back to normal, let people try to talk you into letting bygones be bygones, put the past in the past. Yes, by all means forgive, but do not forget! These are lessons you have learned that you will use the rest of your life, and look at them as lessons, don't live in the past, learn from it. You have to do this on your own, at your own pace, and it doesn't hurt to get help from people that have been through the same things. What's important is that you are nurturing your wounds appropriately, don't be hard on yourself to heal rapidly, you will hurt yourself further in the process. This happened to me, I was talked into doing something I wasn't ready too and it hurt me worse. Then those people ended up dumping me anyway so that just causes further pain.

So nurture your wounds! Read self help books, download apps on self esteem, or spiritual apps. My favorite apps are by hayhouse, and my favorite are the angel oracle cards from Doreen Virtue. I go to the angels on a daily basis and ask them to help me with the issues I face. When I catch myself feeling anger towards these people I say out loud.. "Bless their hearts, they must live horrible lives seeing the way they act, and I only wish them the best." At first this was very hard for me to do, but now it's no big deal. I decided a long time ago that I am NOT going to let people make me ACT like someone I am not. I am going to continue to forgive, and be a compassionate person, because that's the way I have always been and the way I'm suppose to be.

Lots of love.....